Susan Wanjiru |
Catherine Gahoni |
Lucy Wangoi |
Grace Wangiru |
Ruth Wanjiku |
Mary Wanjiku |
Lucy Wainuku |
All the beautiful Nyanyas |
Early on Sunday morning, sitting on the porch outside our lovely comfortable room, hearing only animal sounds and reveling in the beauty and the silence of nature, I reflected on the previous day:
Here I sit, in a luxurious lodge barely 10 miles from where the Sheep Nyanyas live…where they have small sick houses with windows covered only by cloth… where cooking is done either outdoors or on a tiny wood fire in one corner of the house…where animals share living space…where drought has reduced them to one meal a day. Yet they persevere, empowered by a deep, shared spirit…united, acting as a family. Thin blankets protect against the cold nights…life a continual, on-going effort to simply survive…to pay school fees for their grandchildren…to raise their sheep and make kiondos to sell at market.
Here I sit, my appetite sated by a lovely breakfast…bottled water is plentiful. Last night, a hot water bottle warmed my feet and I slept under a down comforter. Today we will make the return trip to Nairobi in a comfortable van and will go to bed in a safe and secure guesthouse far removed from the Kibera Slum (where our grandmothers here live), in kind if not in distance.
Is it any wonder that I am so conflicted? Any wonder I am suffering bouts of melancholy, even as I revel in the incredible resilience of spirit in the people I meet, the breath-taking beauty of the countryside? I drink bottled water while the earth and its people here are parched with drought.
O God, whose wisdom far exceeds mine,
What is my place?How do I cobble together
The disparate pieces of myself into
A shape that makes sense?
That functions in this often
Oxymoronic, conflicting world
in which I find myself?
I lift my eyes to the mountains…
I breathe in the cool, fresh air…
I seek…
I search…
I ask…
May my feet fall on the
Right path…the path of
Compassion…of justice & peace…
Of wisdom…
And may your still, small voice
Continue to guide me,
Even in the midst of my question & doubts.
Let it be so.
Amen & amen
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